I Get Knocked Down...

...But I get up again (or do I?)

 Thanks to Chumbawumba for the inspiration for the title, without you this post may never have happened.

Well in the words of someone famous whose name escapes me right now, "It's a funny old game". How many people hand on heart can say they were thoroughly dejected and saddened when their house was valued at considerably more than they thought it was worth. Just about sums up our luck at the moment.

The idea of bankruptcy is fading as fast as my dream of a debt free existence. I know it's foolish to pin ones hopes on a single solution and I should know better, but for just once in my life I thought something might go right.

Do I sound full of self pity? Well that's because I am. Today is not a good day. Energy reserves are low, emotionally I'm drained and I suspect my fantastically stoic wife is suffering, though she'll never let on.

I've always been a great believer that the world doesn't owe you a living and that ethos still holds true. I just wish now and again it would give you a break in recognition to all the hard work and effort you've put into it.

I'm sure I'll actually feel much better when things actually start happening and the pressure is on. I'm always at my best when under pressure. At the moment it's the complete unknown that's giving me the headache.

I don't know how any of my creditors are going to respond because they won't talk to me until I'm in shit street...

I don't know exactly what benefits we're entitled to as the benefits agency can't tell me until I make a claim. They can tell me the range of benefits I MIGHT be entitled to, but that's no use to man nor beast...

I don't know if my landlord and his solicitor are devising some cunning plan to make my life even more miserable than it already is...

I don't know if the Hadron Collider is going to cause a huge black hole and suck us all into oblivion...

And finally, I don't know why I got out of bed this morning...

All in all a day I'd rather forget, so if you'll excuse me, I'm going to steal a can of Tesco Value Extra Strong Lager and drown my sorrows...